Tuesday, 25 December 2012

Tahun Spesial

2012 bisa dibilang menjadi tahun yang bermakna bagi gw.
Bukan, bukan karena isu kiamat yang dimilikinya,
tapi karena banyak hal yang terjadi di tahun ini
yang cukup mengubah cara berpikir gw.

Salah 2 dari antara kejadian-kejadian bermakna di tahun ini
tidak jauh-jauh dari kado.
Pertama, gw dapat kado ulang tahun di awal tahun
berupa ikut pelatihan rohani yang mengubah cara pandang gw
terhadap rutinitas misa ke gereja.

Yang kedua, hari ini (kemarin tgl 24 malam, lebih tepatnya)
gw dapat kado satu lagi, berupa hadiah Natal yang akan sangat sulit untuk gw lupakan.

Ditambah sebuah rosario yang tidak ada dalam foto ini
Kado Natal gw tahun ini diberikan langsung oleh Rm Hardi.
Beliau adalah sosok Romo yang sangat gw hormati
karena ia sungguh mencerminkan apa yang telah dipelajarinya
melalui tutur kata dan perbuatannya.
Romo mengalungkan salib itu ke gw, dan juga 10 teman lainnya,
sesaat sesudah homili berlangsung.

Simbol salib itu hampir membuat gw menangis.
Salib itu tampak tidak begitu besar, tapi cukup terasa berat
tetapi bukan ini alasan mengapa gw rasanya ingin menangis saat itu.
Perasaan terharu, takut, dan syukur semuanya campur aduk
di saat yang bersamaan.

Terharu karena nyokap akhirnya mau hadir
Misa Malam Natal di Atma Jaya kemarin.
Takut karena simbol salib yang digunakan bukan salib yang ringan,
melainkan salib yang cukup besar
dan beratnya cukup terasa di tengkuk ketika dikalungkan.
Bersyukur karena Tuhan berani sekali lagi percaya pada Stella,
si lemah yang sulit mengontrol emosi serta ucapan dan mudah jatuh dalam godaan.

Entahlah, apa yang lebih mendorong gw untuk membuat tulisan ini.
Mungkin rasa haru yang dirasakan,
tapi tidak menutup kemungkin juga rasa takut yang ada,
hmm... yang pasti gw bersyukur karena masih diberi kesempatan olehNya.

Apapun yang terjadi, sekarang gw akan memanggulnya.
Tolong kirimkanlah kekuatan dan kuatkanlah ketika angin menerpa.

Sunday, 11 November 2012

Kebetulan?


Yeaaaaay!
Senang luar biasa adalah ketika gw (akhirnya) menemukan aplikasi Blogger resmi di Play Store. Kemungkinan besar gw akan lebih sering membuat postingan sekarang :)



Hari ini, seperti ritual biasanya, gw sekeluarga ikut misa Minggu. Kotbah hari ini sungguh menohok gw. Dan supaya ga hanya gw yg tertohok, gw tweet ringkasan kotbah itu. Hahaha.




Kemudian setelah gw pulang ke rumah, gw menemukan dosen gw tweet hal yang juga menohok. Apakah ini kebetulan? Atau ini suatu pertanda bahwa gw harus keluar dari comfort zone?



Friday, 20 July 2012

This Is Not a Tale


found this postcard image from one of my lecturers blog.
and that feeling raging on my mind.
feeling of warm, cheerful, happy moment in the past.

Jatujak Weekend Market has been our family
favourite place to go for holiday.
we have gone there six times and never enough.
it has its own charm which really attracts us to come and come again.
I love the ambience, my mom loves the goods sold,
my brother loves the beverages, my dad loves what we love.

it's been five years passing, since our last trip to JJ Mart.
well, I can't figure out what will I do when I have the chance
to go to JJ Mart once again.
it must be super great and delightful.
I want to go to JJ Mart so bad.

five years passed, so many things happened.
perhaps, that's why I'm longing to go to JJ Mart.
I miss the happy, blissful, perfect moment
of going to JJ Mart with my family :')

Thursday, 12 July 2012

Silly Photoshoot Time

my brother have his hair cut in one of the known-man-salon
in Kemang (he found it in this article)
and I think he wants to show it off with ask me
to take photos with him.


edited with Photoshake and Pixlr-o-Matic for Android

Tuesday, 10 July 2012

JSA XVI 2012 Buper Ragunan

such an unforgettable experience,
two days one night with 43 "angels in disguise",
we do lots of fun activities together!
I really really enjoy that moment
and wish to have it once again :')

well, JSA = Jambore Sahabat Anak.
I won't share about JSA long-winded here,
more info about the event, visit Sahabat Anak website.
(news coverage from MetroTV, check it here)

I attended JSA, 7-8 July 2012.
there were about 1000 street children + 700 adults (as comittee
and children companion).
at first I thought it will be like other social project
I've ever attended.
but I found it wrong. TOTALLY WRONG.

I don't know, but JSA was really different.
it is so different that I can't even forget
about every enjoyable moment I passed through the days.
I've never felt this happy before, after I joined
any social project alike.
but now, two days passed already and I still feel the enjoyment
and so grateful because I've got the opportunity to spent a night
with 43 children from IPPA (Ikatan Peduli Pendidikan Anak)
Rawamalang, Cilincing.

the very first thing that really suprised me was
when I greeted some of the girls,
they enthusiastically said, "hi Kak Stella".
they were not only said hi back to me, but also got themselves
closer to me, looked so interested in me.
this warm greetings never happened before
throughout my experiences being children companion :')

here, take a peek to the manual book of JSA. hho


I wish some day I can join JSA again
and have the same unforgettable moments
like I have had.



and here is some snapshots taken during the activities ;)
enjoy~


Saturday, 26 May 2012

Clara, new kid on the block.




this is Clara aka Lala, cousin of Kendy,
one of the kids from rumah singgah Padua.

I met her accidentally when waiting my dad to fetch me to home.
I stood near one of another shabby house near rumah singgah
(sorry for the word, I don't mean to be rude).
Suddely, Lala said "kak, kak" repeatedly, in such super-cute way.
At first I stood there together with my friends,
gathered in front of Kendy's home
because of evaluation distraction we had.

Done with the evaluation,
all of my friends went home using TransJakarta.
Alone, I did nothing but watching Lala,
she was some steps away from where I stood.
Again she said "kak, kak" with genuine smile on her face.
I can't stand to keep undifference,
so I decided to talk to her.

And that's the moment when I got in trouble.
cont'd



Thursday, 24 May 2012

My Very First Mocca Official Merchandise

I started my day hectically.
Woke up early at 6.30 AM, typed some theoretical basis
for my Psy Experiment paper, did some searchings on Google,
and went to Senen in order collecting qualitative data
(again, for my Qualitative Method paper).

12.30 PM arrived at home from Senen.
bad mood cause I didn't get any street children
I need to be interviewed.
another bad mood cause my friend wasn't clever enough
to dress properly in "Senen area" and it made us
happened to be the object of abang-abang
verbal harassment. ugh!

and suddenly I forgot all those bad things happened,
BECAUSE OF THIS!!!
can't describe it more how it feels to see this
beautiful shirt laid on my desk.
thanks brother for bringing in this lovely stuff.


awesome design!!!


it's supposed to be not that exhilarating for me
to see my first Mocca's shirt laid on my desk.
it just happened so fast since I transferred the money
until I received the shirt itself.
gosh, it only took 2 days
included the day for transferring money!
I give 5 out of 5 rate
for this most satisfying online shop service
I've ever experienced.

btw, I heart the shirt feels on my skin.
so smooth~
this is going to be my favourite shirt.

Saturday, 19 May 2012

Current Mental State


confused

too much things to manage RIGHT NOW


exhausted

too many people to face and deal with RIGHT NOW




I didn't use to be like this *sigh*
Deep apology for everything I've done
which either dissapointing or annoying.

Sunday, 5 February 2012

Kepala Dua

well, akhirnya saat ini tiba.
saat di mana usia gw berkepala dua.
whoaaaa, gw udah tante-tante >.<
(istilah yg selalu gw pakai kalau sseorang
sudah memasuki usia 20 thn. hahahahhaha)

bagi gw, ulang tahun yg keduapuluh kali ini
benar-benar berkesan.
di awali hadiah ulang tahun berupa ikut KLOP
(Knowledge and Leadership of PAJ).
kemudian kongkow2 bareng kawan2 SMA,
yg jarang-jarang bisa dilakukan :)
dan terakhir hadiah kejutan dari kawan2 kuliah
yang sangat menarik ;)
ahh, senangnyaaa~

berikut adl penjelasan bg msg2 hadiah..
1. KLOP
acara ini benar2 membuat ultah ke-20
gw tak terlupakan.
bayangkan sj, di saat gw seharusnya
leha2 di rumah, menanti ucapan dr
teman dan keluarga,,
pas di tgl 3, gw terpaksa ikt acr ini...
acr ini bkn acr biasa krn diawali dgn
napak tilas Atma-Katedral
+ ambilin sampah spanjang jln.
panas dan capek bgt!
terus ada jg outbound penghabisan,
krn diakhiri Trust Fall
yg sangat menguras stamina.
tp di luar hal2 fisik tsb,
gw mendapat pencerahan spiritual
dr ikut KLOP slm 3hr 1mlm itu.
gw tercerahkan saat Rm. Hardi
melontarkan pertanyaan pmbuka sesi,
"apakah ada yang merasa kering rohani?".
sesi itu intinya memberikan pencerahan bagi gw,
sehingga gw lebih bisa memaknai
rutinitas doa dan pergi ke gereja yang biasa
gw lakukan.

2. bolpen tujuh tahun
kedengarannya berlebihan, tapi entahlah,
janji bahwa 7 tahun bolpen tsb
tidak akan mengering membuat gw merasa
teman-teman kuliah gw sangat perhatian.
gw punya ketertarikan yang sulit dideskripsikan
terhadap alat tulis, maupun aksesoris yang menyertainya
(mis: kotak pensil, notes, agenda, organizer).
hadiah bolpen tujuh tahun ini menjadi benda berharga baru
di dalam kotak pensil gw.
terima kasih banyak ya teman-teman yang perhatian :')

hadiah-hadiah biasa di atas,
senantiasa membawa pengalaman dan makna mendalam
untuk gw. terima kasih Tuhan, for the blesses You gave.

Sunday, 22 January 2012

Will Be The Last



wew, I never thought 21st January
will be such an exhausting day like this.
firstly I have to attend that one-hour-late-powwow,
which quite upset me because of the presence of that Pgirl.
I don't like the way she talks. not worth to be heard.
secondly I have to meet my besties
at my ex-high-school's annual gig.
it sounds enjoyable but somehow now I feel worn-out..
I wonder this could happen either because of my lack of sleep
few days recently or my age.
phew, I'm getting 1 year older next month by the way.




the ticket. like the design.


like you see in the ticket,
there are some good performers during the gig.
but sadly, I can't watch Naif's perfomance
since I have to go home before 11.30PM :'(
I've attended two gigs which offer Naif as their closing band,
and neither of them allowed me to watch Naif's performance
just right before I went home..

and now, cause I've already said to myself
not to attend any high school gig anymore,
well then I can say I will never see any Naif's performance.
maybe someday, if I attend any concert or event
which Naif become one of the performers.




why are you gonna stop attending high school music performance, Stell?


I was thinking during performance of Tangga.
I found out that there's no meaning,
nothing is worth enough to make me spend another time
just for watching art performance
that I don't really interesting in.
yeah, I can't deny I enjoyed the event
and meeting my high school friends.
but still, I think it's funny if I said
"I went to the gig just for meeting my friends".

suddenly it came to my sense,
meeting friends in such an event won't serve adequate
quality time enough to talk and getting know each other.
I realized I spent very little time to talk with my friends
during the event cause we were distracted by the loud sound,
the hullabaloo, and the performers.
we kept quite throughout the event and talking only to
express our opinion about the performers.
I think this is not the right thing to do.
we have to find some time to spend together,
just to chit-chat, re-new our information about each other,
and laughing together just like we used to do
in class when we were still using those grey A-line skirt.

photos from Lynn's camera will be uploaded soon.