Sunday, 28 February 2016

The Monster

cling on the monster.
image borrowed from here.

anxiety is an agony feeling.
I've been anxious for several weeks
because I have been forced to decide as soon as possible
what I want to be in 5 years ahead.

since this is the thing I have avoided for
more than one year after my bachelor graduation,
this kind of decision-making process really makes me nervous
till the moment I feel so anxious and unsure with myself.
me doubting myself is such a rare moment in my life
and I am currently in the middle of experiencing it.

suck.

interestingly when I am in misery,
I always find a prayer which hit on the spot.
I found it coincidentally.

Berilah Apa yang Aku Perlukan
Tuhan, kepadaMu aku tidak memohon keajaiban atau penglihatan luar biasa.
Tuhan, aku mohon kepadaMu,berilah aku kekuatan untuk menjalani hidup harianku.
Ajarkanlah kepadaku seni menjalani langkah-langkah kecil dan sederhana.
Buatlah aku merasa aman dan pasti dalam saat-saat hidup yang harus aku lalui.
Berikanlah kepadaku kepekaan yang tajam untuk menemukan apa yang perlu dan apa yang tidak perlu bagi hidupku.
Curahkanlah kepadaku pengetahuan yang jernih dan terang,bahwa kesulitan, kegagalan, kekalahan, juga kemunduran adalah bagian yang tak terelakkan dalam hidupku dan harus aku menerimanya.
Buatlah aku bertumbuh, matang, dan dewasa. Kirimkanlah bagiku, pada waktu yang tepat, orang yang berani mengatakan kepadaku kebenaran dalam hal cinta.
Anugerahkanlah padaku gagasan yang kuperlukan, agar aku dapat memberikan sebungkus kecil kebaikan pada saat dan tempat yang tepat, dengan kata-kata maupun tanpa kata-kata.
Jagalah dan jauhkanlah aku dari kekhawatiran, bahwa aku dapat melewatkan dan menyia-nyiakan hidupku ini.
Janganlah Kauberikan kepadaku apa yang kuinginkan.tetapi berikanlah kepadaku apa yang aku perlukan.
Amin.

Thursday, 4 February 2016

Trail Mix!

the thing which makes me know "trail mix" phrase.
thanks Archer Farms.
I have never eaten a trail mix.
I have tried other snack mix such as those
which combines many kind of peanuts,
or dried fruits, or even Indian dried foods.
but never before do I know there is this kind of snack mix
contains of peanuts, M&M's, raisins, choco chips,
and peanut butter chips.
this is oddly new for me.

interestingly, though I can't eat chocolate
because it is my allergen,
I enjoy eating this Archer Farms trail mix
that was given by a strangers in my freelance place.
actually I just eat the peanut, raisins, and the peanut butter chips.
since I don't like Skippy, I got quite surprise
the peanut butter chips can be tasted so good.
I love the trail mix though I don't eat the chocolate.

this new lovely food drives me to search more about trail mix.
what is this kind of invention?
why the hell people has to eat this kind of weird snack mixing?

apparently, the trail mix has its own invention story.
the purpose of this unique combination snack is to give
enough supplies for the hikers.
the carbohydrate and the fat that could be gained from the mix,
without making the hikers feel so full during eating it,
makes it becomes the perfect meal for the hikers
when they are on their way climbing a mountain.

well, eating classic mix trail
makes me  feel like a hiker. hahahaha.

Wednesday, 3 February 2016

His Good Intention

I don't know Google can be so cute like this :')
I am getting older.
another new year.
another experiences wait for me ahead.



yesterday I was so happy.
out of the blue my brother was calling
and asked me if he can fetch me to IKEA
to help me buy my birthday present.

I was happy yet confused because
I had my own plan for yesterday.
I wanted to go to LPDP Edufair at 3PM
and at the same time my brother was intended
to go to IKEA with me, in Alam Sutera!

well, I was really reluctant.
I know he has that great intention
to buy me present before my birthday
but I prefer to go to LPDP Edufair
rather than to IKEA.

I thought it only took us about 1 hour
to be at the Edufair.
in fact, our chat with one of LPDP awardee
made us spent 2 hours in Indonesia Finance Ministry.
5PM, instead of going to IKEA, we changed our plan.
I told my brother to stop by Brownbag at Menteng Central
before we went home. I think he was disappointed with me choosing to go to LPDP.

lovely club!
not only we ate the club sandwich well,
but we ended up to buy Baskin&Robin's ice cream also.
this is so impulsive since the ice-cream-buying was stimulated
by the promotion on SMS we got, "buy value scoop and got another scoop for free".
I was extremely full and happy afterwards
and I always thank God because He made him my brother.

thanks for the good intention brother,
I do feel grateful for it.
let's go to IKEA next time, 'kay?