Wednesday, 27 April 2016

Being Real


few days ago, a good friend of mine
share this post on her Facebook page.
it hit me hard since I was on that time
when I hate that sentimental part of myself
which is easily touched over small things.
I have ever told a friend,
"just give me some minor attentions
like asking whether I am hungry and need a meal friend,
or checking if I got bored and wanted to talk or watch movie together.
I might like you, dearly."

as the time goes by, I realize, that's me.
that sentimental whore is me.
that cheesy bitch is me.
that full of feeling person is me.
those traits are mine.

I hate being sentimental because I usually find
it is just me who are so full of feelings.
the fact is not that tragic or appreciative
but I tend to feel more than what it looks like.
it makes me weary somehow,
but I nearly hopeless trying to get rid of this
sentimental side of me. 

today, I saw this Facebook page generator.
it surprises me a little.
I think this generator is quite exaggerated.

the generator is here.

yeah, I can give my concern towards someone's problem
more than the person himself.
yeah, I tend to be disappointed, esp. when it comes to relation.
*embracing the sentimental part of me*
*sigh*

Monday, 25 April 2016

In Love with Telegram

add Satuan Peternak Bebek sticker on your Telegram!
I find this sticker customization is really interesting.
I was a WhatsApp loyal user for more than 4 years.
I've never found such an instant messaging application
as powerful as WhatsApp.
not until I know Telegram.

it only took me two days to fall in love with this app.
Telegram is really giving the experience that I can't get
when I am using WhatsApp or any other personal IM apps.

  • Telegram enables you to make your very own sticker! geez this is super awesome feature.
  • yeah I made it!
  • Telegram enables you to make a huge group. you can add up to 5000 members in one group! this is great though I can't wonder how chaos the group will be.
  • Telegram has a lot of bots to be the group gimmick! I have tried some of them, Werewolf and Hangman is the most fun after all.
  • Telegram doesn't take so much space like WhatsApp. this is such a great advantage especially when you have a group of active to send-pictures member.

our favorite game!
the stats doesn't make sense anyway...

there are some cool features of Telegram like inline bot,
handy feature to make searching and posting stuffs
with your friends become easier.
but even I don't find it useful, I'm already falling in love with Telegram.
YEAH!

Friday, 22 April 2016

Holiday with (Other's) Family

booked today! yipeeeee!

Bali is never be my favorite holiday destination.
I can't see something particularly attractive or interesting from Bali.
BUT, I am so excited from yesterday since Ria, my living diary,
asked me to join her family holiday.
wooot!!! this is my very first time going on a trip with a family that is not mine.
I am very excited.

the only things that interest me about Bali are:
1. Pie Susu
2. Dendeng Titiles
3. Bali's original street food, such as Warung Men Wati

in conclusion, it's only Bali's culinary that interest me then. hahaha

Friday, 15 April 2016

Memulai atau Kembali

sekali mendengar lagu ini dan gw langsung suka.
berbagai kenangan berhamburan,
memunculkan keinginan untuk kembali ke masa lalu.
ingin rasanya sekali lagi mencoba rasa itu,
rasa di mana hari esok layaknya sebuah kado
yang memunculkan penasaran dan harapan
sekaligus juga membawa kesenangan.

Matahari sudah di penghujung petang
Kulepas hari dan sebuah kisah
Tentang angan pilu yang dahulu melingkupiku
Sejak saat itu langit senja tak lagi sama

Sebuah janji terbentang di langit biru
Janji yang datang bersama pelangi
Angan-angan pilupun perlahan-lahan menghilang
Dan kabut sendu pun berganti menjadi rindu

Aku mencari
Aku berjalan
Aku menunggu
Aku melangkah pergi
Kaupun tak lagi kembali

Sebuah janji terbentang di langit biru
Janji yang datang bersama pelangi
Angan-angan pilupun perlahan-lahan menghilang
Dan kabut sendupun berganti menjadi rindu
Sejak saat itu langit senja
Tak lagi sama

Angan-angan pilupun perlahan-lahan menghilang
Dan kabut sendupun berganti menjadi rindu
Sejak saat itu langit senja
Tak lagi sama

Aku mencari
Aku berjalan
Aku menunggu
Aku melangkah pergi
Kaupun tak lagi
Dan ku kan memulai kembali
Monita, Memulai Kembali
hal yang menarik adalah keinginan kembali itu
datang bersamaan dengan dorongan untuk memulai.

memulai sesuatu yang baru dari hal baru?
atau memulai sesuatu yang baru dengan kembali pada hal lama?

taken from here

Tuesday, 12 April 2016

Stand By You



this song keeps playing in my head.
usually when I post it on my blog,
it will stop looping. hahahaha
(yeah, I have already played it thousands time
before I post it here)

Hands, put your empty hands in mine
And scars, show me all the scars you hide
And hey, if your wings are broken
Please take mine so yours can open, too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you

Oh, tears make kaleidoscopes in your eyes
And hurt, I know you're hurting, but so am I
And, love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine 'til yours can open, too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you

Even if we're breaking down, we can find a way to break through
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you

Yeah, you're all I never knew I needed
And the heart—sometimes it's unclear why it's beating
And, love, if your wings are broken
We can brave through those emotions, too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you

Oh, truth—I guess truth is what you believe in
And faith—I think faith is having a reason
And I know now, love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine 'til yours can open, too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you

Even if we're breaking down, we can find a way to break through
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you

I'll be your eyes 'til yours can shine
And I'll be your arms, I'll be your steady satellite
And when you can't rise, well, I'll crawl with you on hands and knees
'Cause I... I'm gonna stand by you

Even if we're breaking down, we can find a way to break through (come on)
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
Love, you're not alone
Oh, I'm gonna stand by you
(even if we can't find heaven, heaven, heaven)
Yeah, I'm gonna stand by you

Rachel Platten - Stand By You
this song pops up in my mind as I gain new relationship insights.
it is such a coincidence, isn't it?

Saturday, 9 April 2016

Two Intuitives Talking About Love

thanks Pul, for the reminder.
image taken from here.

the 3 hour length chat with a friend,
makes me come into some new insights about relationship.


  1. feelings are like "Jaelangkung", which come and go as it is. never relies on feelings for a committed relationship. love is a noun yet a verb. it is something that needs action. love is not a feeling, it is not an adjective.

  2. it is never about "I still have a feeling for you" or "I think we are matching for one another". relationship is always about how much both parties want to give some effort in order to understand for each other.

  3. there is a quote which said that "one person is enough to make some changes in a relationship to make it work" but actually, relationship is always about the work of two people.

  4. don't give up easily in a committed relationship. just don't. the ups and downs will always be there, even in the most perfect relationship, a 50-year-old marriage.

  5. when there are times one party feels tired because of the relation, that is not a sign for the couple to end up the relationship. it is a common indication which means both parties need to discuss and talk openly to solve the weariness.

  6. appreciate your significant other's effort when s/he doing experiment in the relationship. it's not s/he trying to be manipulative but it's about how to s/he is making something different just to save a worthy relationship. nobody will care about worthless relationship.

  7. people may seems changing. it is either because their personalities are changed (which is quite impossible) or they just reveal more about themselves. this means you are trustful and reliable enough to stay although you have seen the worst part of your partner, something you've never known before. feel appreciated instead of disappointed.
...
thanks for the chat.
thank you my dear experience.


10/04/16
11:47 PM

a friend of mine post this link in our WhatsApp group,
few days after I have some new insights about relationship.

thanks Cathlin for sharing the link.
Pope Francis, amazingly, writes his thoughts about healthy relationship.
it's amazing because Pope Francis doesn't relate
any of his thoughts with Catholic doctrines.
Pope makes some points that are more psychological
and emphatic towards couples, which perhaps,
struggling to save their committed relationship.

here are some of Pope Francis relationship advice I strongly agree >:)

love needs time and space.

just listen.
being understood is the needs of every human, isn't it?

imperfect love doesn't mean love is untrue or unreal :')
this saying really hits me hard.
as an unrealistic idealist,
I tend to believe that love makes any relationship perfect.
as I read and discussed a lot about healthy relationship,
well, there's nothing can make a relation becomes perfect
besides the willingness and effort of both parties
to craft the imperfection together
until one day it becomes a perfectly imperfect relationship.

to love is to appreciate.
- Sunday Expatriate Mass @ St. Theresia Church (10/04/16)
the priest said the same things about love and appreciation
in the mass which I attended this afternoon.
somehow I wonder if the appreciation were gone,
could there be still any chance to love?
I can not agree more.
in other words, I might say
jealousy is stupid and possessiveness is ridiculous.

be realistic about our limit, defects, and imperfection.
I think that's why it is important and helpful
for every person who are involved in any relationship
to know and understand about themselves deeply.
I believe the solution of every life problems
start from within our selves.

what alters the mood is the way things are said
or the attitude with which they are said.
the longest distance of two persons is misunderstanding.
the only way to understand other is by making a healthy conversation,
the moment when two adults are able to say what's on each mind
without being accused or judged for having different point of view
and different way of thinking.

this is fresh!
I am grateful for knowing Papal relationship advice :')
in spite of the fact two persons are match into each other,
have the same willingness to make the relationship works,
and understand one to each other deeply,
but still every person is responsible to be interesting.
what can be duller than a boring partner who always
says the same thing over and over again just because
s/he doesn't read, unable to communicate one's reflection,
and doesn't give a damn with her/his surroundings?
love needs work and effort, after all.

happy loving and being loved!